Weak Flesh brings Strong Faith

I am so tired of Satan. I’m sick of his conniving, evil ways. I can be on such a high and doing so well and my flesh weakens only slightly and then BAM satan is there waving a shiny thing in my face distracting me from my true purpose.

For some reason, over the years I have grown accustomed to hiding my struggles. I would bet I got a few head nods, but none the less, I hide my struggle because it is not near as bad as my best friend who just lost her child, spouse, mother, father… you get my drift.

So I bottle it.

Well that one time doesn’t really make too big a deal. I bury the worry. I move on.

Well that happens a few more times and then a cycle starts. A cycle of anxiety, denial, suppression and then complete cover up.

When I think of the word “cover up” I think of my favorite investigative show NCIS. I love watching them investigate a murder and trying to dig through all the details to find the truth.

In fact, I love all shows that document finding truth. Some fiction and some true stories.

Over the last few months I’ve been on a mission to uncover the details of truth in my own life. There is only one Truth and that is Jesus Christ. I’m learning how to dissect my own world and submitting every facet of my life to Jesus.

I was reading, You’re the girl for the job, by Jess Connelly and I came across a quote that struck me

“We think our responsibility is to tell everyone how to interact with Jesus, but what is most life changing is when we interact with Jesus in front of others and let them see the difference He makes in our lives”

Whew! talk about a light bulb. It’s all through out scripture and I’ve read it a million times, but the way she worded it hit home.

Why am I being attacked by Satan?

Because I am trying my darndest to live out my life interacting with Jesus.

He attacks every time I get going in the right direction. He lies to me. My flesh fails me and Satan uses that opportunity to tear me down.

Paul tells us in his letter to the church in Ephesus

“In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one;” Ephesians 6:16 ESV

In all!

Not just the big ones. You see Satan has been attacking me in small places where I wasn’t submitting to the Fathers will. I was mounting a massive cover up, but I know God sees me. He sees my fear, my broken heart for the weary and I can’t hide from Him.

How are you doing?

Are you layering on blankets of anxiety, fear, anger, cynicism, pride…..?

Our father is the ultimate NCIS agent. He knows the truth better than ol Jethro.

I’m already fascinated by the truths he’s uncovered so far right in front of my eyes. He can do this for you. Stop building walls around certain aspects of your life that you don’t want to give up control in.

Give it all, the good the bad and the ugly.

“casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.”
‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭5:7‬ ‭ESV‬‬

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